I've never successfully finished the ABC Diet.
Ever.
This time around, I make it my goal to finish it. It's not even about losing weight right now, just finishing it. (Okay, so the reward of completing the ABC Diet is obviously losing weight, but I figure more weight is lost when I actually finish it.)
Started yesterday for the first 500cal day, and finished with almost exactly that.
Shows how much I've been over eating, 1000cal+ days....
*shudder*
No more.
Another 500 today, and a birthday dinner to attend. Thank god I can only have salads.
I figure if I don't eat today (except for cough drops maybe) then I can binge on whatever bunny-food I decide on at the restaurant.
Or maybe pick up a snack so that way I'm seen stuffing my face.
And then I want to see a gap between my thighs.
And to wear that purple dress I just bought.
And to not look like a sausage trying to escape it's casing when I wear it.
My friend and a group of students are trying to start up an 'eating disorders awareness club' or some shit like that. I've been talking it with them and discussing the generalities of an eating disorder and why people don't often notice.
And little do they know. Ha.
Personally, I'm afraid that if I keep talking about it, I'm going to get caught.
But, it's nice to viciously discuss with someone about diet, weight, exercise, and eating habits.
Just wanting a buddy, in person. Someone to slap my hands down and tell me not to eat.
Fact:
I think my "M" key is broken or just being an asshole. Not cooperating today.
--
Damn.
Ate 2 cups of popcorn.
Ate fries from chick-fil-a because my friend and her group were watching me.
"Just coffee?"
"Yup. Americano. Black."
"What are you doing for lunch?"
"Americano. Black."
"Here, eat my fries. I saved them for you."
"Oh no, I'm good."
"Really."
*Tosses box in front of me*
"Thanks."
What do I do about tonight? I'm contemplating saving my starbucks cup to spit food into.
If I get a salad with just lettuce....I can stay at my goal.
When I leave for home tomorrow, I can eat nothing. Or close to that.
Getting tired of being around at least two people in an ED prevention club 24/7.
Where did my isolation go? My caffeine addiction disappeared along with it.
/sigh/
~alexana (Weight : still unknown, can't find scale. Therefore: ∞)
Thick eyebrows and thin bodies.
Not the other way around.
--
Thinspo, as promised:
Ever.
This time around, I make it my goal to finish it. It's not even about losing weight right now, just finishing it. (Okay, so the reward of completing the ABC Diet is obviously losing weight, but I figure more weight is lost when I actually finish it.)
Started yesterday for the first 500cal day, and finished with almost exactly that.
Shows how much I've been over eating, 1000cal+ days....
*shudder*
No more.
Another 500 today, and a birthday dinner to attend. Thank god I can only have salads.
I figure if I don't eat today (except for cough drops maybe) then I can binge on whatever bunny-food I decide on at the restaurant.
Or maybe pick up a snack so that way I'm seen stuffing my face.
And then I want to see a gap between my thighs.
And to wear that purple dress I just bought.
And to not look like a sausage trying to escape it's casing when I wear it.
My friend and a group of students are trying to start up an 'eating disorders awareness club' or some shit like that. I've been talking it with them and discussing the generalities of an eating disorder and why people don't often notice.
And little do they know. Ha.
Personally, I'm afraid that if I keep talking about it, I'm going to get caught.
But, it's nice to viciously discuss with someone about diet, weight, exercise, and eating habits.
Just wanting a buddy, in person. Someone to slap my hands down and tell me not to eat.
Fact:
I think my "M" key is broken or just being an asshole. Not cooperating today.
--
Damn.
Ate 2 cups of popcorn.
Ate fries from chick-fil-a because my friend and her group were watching me.
"Just coffee?"
"Yup. Americano. Black."
"What are you doing for lunch?"
"Americano. Black."
"Here, eat my fries. I saved them for you."
"Oh no, I'm good."
"Really."
*Tosses box in front of me*
"Thanks."
What do I do about tonight? I'm contemplating saving my starbucks cup to spit food into.
If I get a salad with just lettuce....I can stay at my goal.
When I leave for home tomorrow, I can eat nothing. Or close to that.
Getting tired of being around at least two people in an ED prevention club 24/7.
Where did my isolation go? My caffeine addiction disappeared along with it.
/sigh/
~alexana (Weight : still unknown, can't find scale. Therefore: ∞)
Thick eyebrows and thin bodies.
Not the other way around.
--
Thinspo, as promised:
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